blame the boys.

haha so i totally just installed this app thingy on my mac that makes my keyboard sound like a typewriter...i guess i'm super easily amused cause i find it immensely entertaining, creative writing assignments just got a lotttt more fun! (:
i didn't go to practice this morning cause of stupid school issues and so i missed the football game at the end with the granada boys :(((( wahhh i'd bitch about it but i've decided i need to like get over things faster and just move on. haha we'll see how that goes.
so yea i was considering going into SF today to look at junior prom dresses cause now ours is like less than four weeks away but my mom is kinda annoyed at me for not going to school yesterday so i think i'll be a goody-two-shoes this week and get my bio seminar grade up so i can go nexttt weekend or sometime over spring break and she'll be willing to pay for a dress...and shoes...and yea. (:
ooh and i'm totally into this whole busking idea (like playing music on street corners?) and as far as i can tell it's totally like legal in SF...i wonder how much i could make, cause it's like a genius way to make money if you ask me. just hafta convince my mom..that might be slightly difficult. hm.
i just wrote this total crap piece of writing for my workshop on monday, i'm gonna be soooo embarrassed reading it out loud cause it's totally like about family shit and it's basically like a huuuge run on sentence so idkk. i hope feedback isn't too too bad but whatever it's not like i reallyyy care cause my creative writing class is full of complete losers so i'd still be cooler and smarter and prettier than them if i turned in total crapp.
kay i hafta make up hella english work so parr doesn't murder me. and i have to make up the run this morning. and i have to make this day somehow worthwhile...and prolly remodel like my entire room cause I might come over on monday, depending on which way my mood swings that day.
ooooh but new boy! C. he's fast and ripped and a total flirt, man i'm excited, i hope i can go places with him (: i just met him thursdayyy. man if i could feel like this afterrr i got a boy, my problems would be totally solved. but i'm only ever in it for the chase :/ i blame the boys.
ohwell pretty sure he's the one that posted on my formspring (: hehe
aaand it's sunny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes that totally deserved alllll those exclamation points, i'm a billion times happier when it's warm out. and i'm considering sucking up to my dad again so i can finallyyyyy get my license and go to south carolina in the summa.
kay this is turning into like an essay so imma stop.
<3
:P

heyy you, yea you

it's 7:30 and you should call.
i'm counting on it.
and i know i shouldn't see you tonight, cause chances are we'll kiss and hold hands, and i don't even know how i feel about you, and that's kinda like, dishonest, you know?
but i know i'll never totally be over you, must be nice having that kinda power over me huh? and the thing is i don't even mind. but you're not really letting me move on.
it's not like i haven't dated other guys and all you know, but i always fall back on you. you're reliable, which i hear is like a good quality and shit, but i'd much rather you weren't, cause without you there, i could bother with building up actual relationships with other guys. and being the attention craving whore i am, i need to flaunt it. but you don't waaaanna. well why the fuck not? i'm totally on a higher level than you, admit it, so it's not like you'll be embarrassed or anything.
funny that's what i'm scared of.
maybe i won't kiss you, being a tease is more fun anywayyys. (:
eff not having hardly any selfcontrol.
see you soon, or at least i hope so despite everything.
xxx

did you know that

i got a letter in the mail from franklin universityy which is an american university in switzerland, like the part right in between france and italy (:
totally just 'requested more information' cause that is like, my dream!
idk how i could have not known until yesterday that there were american colleges in europe, i thought i'd hafta go through the agonizing transfer process and waste two years out here...guess nottt!(: this makes me happyy
but i'm not gonna go anywhere if i don't shape up soon ): wahhhhh i'm so lazy. but i'm not, cause i run 50 miles a week and take lifeguard training and toss around 10 pound bricks in the water and pull people from the bottom of the pool. so i'd say i'm' like mentally lazy, but that's so not true, i love challenges and shit and thinking and all, just not...required thinking. eff being a rebel, it's harddd! haha.
boy needs to fucking text me before i move on like i do wayyyy too much.asdfl;kj;l;' hmph.

your smile makes me wanna misbehave

i'm so effing crazyyy about this boy (:

basically waited 3 years for last sunday and it was worth every second.

well okay i wasn't exactly waitinggg all those 3 years, lol.

but it's terrible cause i've got no idea how to not be a flirt. like, cute boy next to me and i'm NOT supposed to? wtf, um, nah don't think soooo. haha whatever, i don't hafta worry about that till shit's official and it's not! love it.

oh & jing we need to effing make out alreadyyy(; can't believe you missed your chance today! damn.

& kendall, we need to have our christmas get-together...haha.

kks

lovee

helllllo

yea so i got sick of my other blog. after 3 posts, lol.

maybe if i'm lucky this will get scandalous enough that it has to be private like jing's (: tehe!